Bacilo morbidamente

Missing my boyfriend

Wed, 13 Aug 2008 23:07:17 GMT

So Andrew's in Europe until pretty much the end of this month. I miss him a lot right now. At least we're able to e-mail each other every now and then.

Sun, 18 May 2008 05:07:49 GMT

New favorite song:

Wish enough, wise man'll tell you a lie
Window broke, torn up screens
Who'd have thought that you'd dream
Of a single tragic scene

I just wanna sing a song with you
I just want to take it off of you

Cause Blue Eyes
You are all that I need
Cause Blue Eyes
You’re the sweet to my mean

Fess it up, dot on the palm of your hand
I can help you to stand
Saved it up for this dance
Tell me all the things you can

I just wanna sing a song with you
I just wanna be the one that's true

Cause Blue Eyes
You’re the secret I keep
Cause Blue Eyes

All the lights on and you are alive
But you can't point the way to your heart
So sublime, when the stars are aligned
But you don't know
You don't know the greatness you are

Cause Blue Eyes
You are destiny's scene
Cause Blue Eyes
I just wanna be the one

I just wanna sing a song with you
I just wanna get it on with you

Cause Blue Eyes
You’re the secret I keep
Cause Blue Eyes
I just wanna sing a song with you…

On to another school?

Sat, 03 May 2008 02:01:07 GMT

Looks like I might be on my way to UNO (University of New Orleans)...

Anway, finals are almost over. My last one is this Monday and after that I'm free for most of the summer. *woo*

I so need to go out and see Andrew soon. I miss my boyfriend a lot.

That kind of day...

Sun, 20 Apr 2008 04:34:51 GMT

You know when you have a day when everything doesn't go right?

It's definitely one of those days...

This made me smile

Mon, 24 Mar 2008 21:06:01 GMT

A friend of mine found this and sent the link to me...

I played contra alto clarinet for the concert (wow)

http://www.district9.info/district_results_hs_band_04.htm

Anyone want a cat?

Sun, 16 Mar 2008 21:54:46 GMT

So about a week ago a cat showed up on my front porch. I have no idea how old this cat is but she's super friendly. She might be pregnant or just fat from having a few liters, I'm not really too sure. Wherever you walk she'll follow and it doesn't matter who it is as long as she's getting attention. I'm trying to find a home for her because she's trying to take away the whole dominant role from my cat Andy and he doesn't like it, plus when I have to bolt out the door for my classes in New Orleans every morning I don't want to trip over her again.

Anyway, if you're interested in a female cat of unknown age and might possibly be pregnant let me know. I'll send you a few pictures.

Wed, 12 Mar 2008 01:06:43 GMT

New Orleans traffic sucks. I can't wait to move the hell away from this area.

Sun, 09 Mar 2008 22:37:28 GMT

Talked to Andrew yesterday. It pretty much was the only thing good for my day.

Aside from that I had to do last minute dress hunting for Amanda's wedding. Prom season and a specific color... serene... ugh. There were 3 dresses in that color in the entire store and I was lucky to find two in my size. The first one was long and there was too much boob exposure for my comfort. I think the only way someone could wear that dress was if they hardly had boobs or they would use duct tape to secure no slipage. The second dress fit perfect. It's strapless and comes to midleg, but it works for me. I was lucky to find shoes in my size and had to get them dyed the same color as the dress. My mom nagged me to get a necklace and earings so I settled for a matching set of glass pearls and faux diamonds necklace and earings that played off a little pin thing on the dress. So 2 hours, $215 later and having to bring the dress to the alterations area in David's Bridal, I have to get some minor things fixed because from what I saw that day a lot of girls who were trying on dresses that you could tell were just 2-3 sizes too small from them. So, the zipper area needs some tending to and the little "eye" hook on the back of the dress needs to be replaced. Things would have been easier if Amanda eloped like they planned to last week when I bought a simple cocktail dress. Oi!

Things leveled out as I talked to Andrew for a while. He didn't really do anything, but talking to him just made my day a lot better. I felt bad when my parents all of a sudden told me get ready because they were bringing me to Cosino's to eat. So after telling Andrew I love him I was out the door. Dinner was great, I don't think I've laughed so hard in the past few months. There was a family gathering a table away and a little baby belly laughed for a little while. Cute babies belly laughing are just contagious.

After dinner I saw 10,000 BC. Good movie... the ending is a little different, but I enjoyed it. When I got home I talked to Andrew for the rest of the night.

So I made it to 22...

Taylow Swift - Our Song

Tue, 04 Mar 2008 22:49:03 GMT

I was ridin shotgun
with my hair undone
in the front seat of his car

Hes got a one hand feel
on the steering wheel
the other on my heart
I look around turn the radio down
he says baby is something wrong

I say nothin
I was just thinkin
how we dont have a song
and he said,

Our song is the slammin screen door
sneakin out late tappin on your window
when we're on the phone
and you talk real slow
cause its late and your momma don't know

Our song is the way you laugh,
the first date man I didnt kiss her and I should have
and when I got home
'for I said amen
askin God if He could play it again

I was walkin up the front porch steps
after everythin that day
had gone all wrong
had been trampled on
and lost and thrown away
got to the hallway
I was on my way
to my lovin bed
I almost didnt notice all the roses and the note that said,

Our song is the slammin screen door
sneakin out late tappin on your window
when we're on the phone
and you talk real slow
cause its late and your momma don't know

Our song is the way you laugh,
the first date man I didn't kiss her and I should have
and when I got home
'for I said amen
askin God if He could play it again

Da da da daaa

I've heard every album listen to the radio,
waitin for somethin to come along
that was as good as our song

(slower)
'Cause our song is the slammin screen door
sneakin out late tappin on.his.window
when we're on the phone
and he talks real slow
cause its late and his mama don't know

Our song is the way he laughs,
the first date man I didn't kiss him and I should have
and when I got home
'for I said amen
askin God if He could play it again

play it again
oH yeaH..

uh uh yeah

I was riding shotgun
with my hair undone
in the front seat of his car

I grabbed a pen and an old napkin
and I wrote down our song

[lyrics on http://www.metrolyrics.com]

Wow I'm Old (mentally)

Sat, 01 Mar 2008 00:26:48 GMT

You know when your birthday is, but how old should you really be?
(just put an x next to the things that apply to you)

[x] I know how to make a pot of coffee.
[x] keep track of dates using a calender....
[x] I have more than one credit card....
[x] I know how to change the oil in a car.
[x] I do my own laundry.
[x] I vote every election
[x] I can cook for myself.
[ ] I think politics are exciting.
[ ] I balance my checkbook.
[ ] My parents have better things to say than my friends.

total=7

[x] I show up for school/college/work every day early.
[x] I always carry a pen in my pocket/purse.
[ ] I've never gotten a detention.
[ ] I have never smoked a cigarette.
[x] I have never gotten completely trashed.
[ ] I have forgotten my own birthday at least once.
[x] I like to take walks by myself.
[ ] I watch talk shows.
[x] I know what 'credibility' means without looking it up.
[ ] I drink coffee at least once a week.

total so far: 12

[x] I know how to do the dishes.
[x]I can count to 10 in another language.
[x] When I say I'm going to do something I do it.
[x] My parents trust me.
[x] I can mow the lawn.
[x] I can make adults laugh without being stupid.
[ ] I remember to water the plants.
[x] I study only when I have to.
[ ] I pay attention at work.
[x] I remember to feed my pets/child.

total so far: 20

[x] I can spell 'experience' without looking it up
[ ] I work out on a regular basis.
[ ] I clean up my own mess.
[ ] The people at DutchBros know me by name.
[ ] My favorite kind of food is take out.
[x] I have gained weight since high school.
[ ] The first thing I do when I wake up is get caffeine.
[x] I can go to the store without getting something I don't need.
[ ] I understand political jokes the first time they are said.
[x] I can type quickly

total so far: 24

[x] I have realized that the weather forecast changes every hour.
[ ] My only friends are from my place of employment.
[ ] I have been to a tupperware party
[x] I have realized that no one will take you seriously unless you are over the age of 21 and have a job.
[ ] I have more bills than I can pay.
[ ] All my friends are older than I am.
[x] I can say no to staying out all night.
[x] I use the internet every day.
[x] My wardrobe hasn't changed in a while.
[x] I can read a book and actually finish it.

Grand Total: 30

Ready for a vacation

Sat, 16 Feb 2008 02:01:14 GMT

So my birthday is coming up in 3 weeks and I'm looking forward to spending it in WA with Andrew. All I have to say is I hope my midterms won't get in the way of going out there for the weekend.

Nonstop study

Thu, 07 Feb 2008 06:42:00 GMT

I think the past week my studying has increased. I've been bored and for fun working on chapter 3 chemistry homework that I printed off of blackboard. Also, I've re-read the first 4 chapters of both American history to 1865 and Early Western Civilization. And for the first time I can say that I don't need to study for French because I actually know the words for the test and how to spell them (with the right accents of course).

If I keep this up I'll definately have a 4.0...

and then die from brain overload.

He's back in contact!

Sun, 03 Feb 2008 21:24:42 GMT

I got to talk to Andrew last night and today. I've missed him a lot and it makes me happy getting to talk to him again.

Can't wait to see him

Because I'm taking a short break from all my assignments

Mon, 28 Jan 2008 00:04:15 GMT

1)single or taken?
taken

2) Do you like it?
yes

3) Would you still kiss your ex?
no

4) Have you ever had your heart broken?
umm, I've been hurt emotionally, but at the same time I've hurt him too

5) Are you missing someone special right now?
yea

6) Have you talked about marriage with this someone?
yes

7)Do you want children?
yea

8) If yes, how many?
3 or 4

9.) Would you consider adoption?
yes

10.) If someone liked you right now, would you want them to tell you?
not really, if they want to tell me then ok

11.) Do you want someone you can't have?
umm I'm pretty sure I have him

12.) Do you believe in celebrating anniversaries?
yes, but it depends on what it is

13.) Do you get butterflies when your around your crushes?
I almost always have butterflies around him

14.) Do any of ur EXS still have feelings for you?
highly doubt it

15.) Have u slept at a opposite sex's House?
yes

16.) Do you like someone?
yes, I like my guy

Wed, 16 Jan 2008 04:48:49 GMT

20-24 hours a week? I don't know how my boss expects me to work that when I'm at the max limit of fulltime student. So many classes and all are demanding. I need to quit so I can stay sane, because unlike my boss and everyone else that I work with are either: not in school or take the minimun amount of hours allowed. It's not just the working after class and having to close, but it's the shift switches people pull on me when I'm off of work and expect me to know. I got a phone call at 7:20 asking if I was going to show up to work and all I had to say was "The schedule I talked to Nicci about was that I am off til Thursday. I was not informed of a schedule change and I'm on the causeway driving to New Orleans for class. So, I'm not showing up and whoever switched my shift needs to pass it through me." I'm highly aggrivated that these girls keep switching things around on me. I'm a pre-med student damnit! I don't have time for that crap. Two weeks notice is definately going to be taking affect Thursday.

Bored.... Just Bored

Thu, 10 Jan 2008 18:30:32 GMT

There's a point in time when working at restaurants gets old... With the spring semester starting soon I'm going to bash my head in the wall or something if I have to pull doubles every Friday, Saturday, and Sunday.

I'm nearing the end and this is when I really need to focus.

Holy shit I'm going to med school!?!

Mon, 07 Jan 2008 06:15:49 GMT

I got in to a school in Texas! Just need those last few humanities classes for my degree and I'm in.

Hell yeah!

Oh yeah, still no name as to the person who sent the flowers. The person had my cell number as the home number so they know me...

Secret Admirer?

Fri, 04 Jan 2008 20:47:15 GMT

After spending an entire day out and about I came home to see a box with FTD on it. My first reaction was "Wow that's weird, this must have been brought to the wrong house." until I looked and saw the address was right and the flowers are for me. No name as to the person that sent the roses and bear, but I love the gift. (I have an good idea as to who the sender is) All I can say is thank you.

I wish I knew who sent this.

After Christmas...

Sat, 29 Dec 2007 03:32:28 GMT

Aside from not doing anything or really seeing anyone this Christmas, it was still nice. My brother Eric got me a gift card to Game Stop so I can nerd it up. Jason got me Waitress on DVD, mostly because I like Nathan Fillion's acting (doesn't hurt that he looks good too). Mom and dad gave me money and some stuff for whenever I move out after I get my bachelors... so pretty much a waffle maker and some pots/pans.

I guess what really made this holiday good for me was that I talked to Andrew a little here and there. I miss him a lot.

Hope everyone's holiday was pleasant.

hmmm

Sat, 22 Dec 2007 23:35:29 GMT

So... Christmas party tonight at Guy and Caleb's house. Never been to their Christmas party, but I did have to pick my brother and Christene up after a Mardi Gras parade when everyone was totally shit faced.

I'm not sure if I want to show up to it or not.

Oh, and apparently New Year's Eve and New Year's Day is not considered a holiday for the company that I work for. Bastards.

Real Update

Fri, 21 Dec 2007 03:47:11 GMT

Everything has been pretty short and undetailed so I figured today it'll be different.

School:

So far I've passed with A's and B's, but I'm not sure I want to continue with it. I might just switch majors or drop... something I don't know yet. Things just feel wrong, like maybe I picked the wrong major or there's something I need to be doing before I continue with my biology degree. It just sucks that I'm so close to finishing, but there's really no school in Louisiana that has a good biology program. Maybe I'm just lazy or being stupid, but this just doesn't feel right.

Work:

What started off as a good job just became more of a pain. I can't stand these "splits". I really need to get out of the food service. I should get back into giving private lessons for the junior high/middle school kids.

Relationship:

That's not something I wish to talk about on here. So, yeah... talk to me in person, phone, or aim about it.

Friends:

I hardly get to see them because my schedule is always different. When I do it's rare and we don't really do anything. Although, I did enjoy watching Ryan make paper things and Brittany make those little felt animals. Also, my friends are pretty much moving on, moving away, and starting new lives and families. (Honestly, I'd like to be moving on and all like them, but it's not going to happen for me... at least not for a long time.) Kudos to them and I hope it lasts.

Mentally:

I'm a total mess. Thousands of questions all the time. The words "What if..." are just fucking haunting. I need to do something to just clear my head and "drain" my brain.

Personally, I've been coming to realize a lot of my flaws and I really don't know how people put up with me... ever. I think I have a lot of work to do on myself before I am in a position to be... well, friend material.

So...

Thu, 20 Dec 2007 00:50:06 GMT

I'm almost back down to my high school weight and size. 5 more pounds to go til I'm 125.

Bears @ Vikings

Wed, 19 Dec 2007 00:23:18 GMT

Vikings 20 : Bears 13

I is sad

Last year

Thu, 13 Dec 2007 01:37:17 GMT

You should have just dumped me and never spoken to me again.

You say you love me.... prove it.

stirb nicht vor mir (Don't Die Before I Do)

Wed, 05 Dec 2007 18:53:14 GMT

Die Nacht öffnet ihren Schoß
Das Kind heißt Einsamkeit
Es ist kalt und regungslos
Ich weine leise in die Zeit
Ich weiß nicht wie du heißt
Doch ich weiß dass es dich gibt
Ich weiß dass irgendwann
irgendwer mich liebt

He comes to me every night
No words are left to say
With his hands around my neck
I close my eyes and pass away

I don't know who he is
In my dreams he does exist
His passion is a kiss
And I can not resist

Ich warte hier
Don't die before I do
Ich warte hier
Stirb nicht vor mir

I don't know who you are
I know that you exist
Stirb nicht
Sometimes love seems so far
Ich warte hier
Your love I can't dismiss
Ich warte hier

Alle Häuser sind verschneit
Und in den Fenstern Kerzenlicht
Dort liegen sie zu zweit
Und ich
Ich warte nur auf dich

Ich warte hier
Don't die before I do
Ich warte hier
Stirb nicht vor mir

I don't know who you are
I know that you exist
Stirb nicht
Sometimes love seems so far
Ich warte hier
Your love I can't dismiss

Stirb nicht vor mir